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What was I thinking? I mean, seriously? What was I thinking? It's all well and good to want to get a master's degree, but come on. A page of hebrew translation for every class period (ramping up to 2)? I think this is going to be as much work as hebrew over the summer, which met for 9 hours a week instead of 3. Argh. Did not need this. Must not hyperventilate.
I've always suspected that the belief in my own laziness was not mere self-deprecation, and now I'm sure of it. I've been casting about to find any way to avoid that extra (likely) 10 hours a week (or, you know, at least the 4 on top of the reasonably-expected 6 of external preparation), but of course the other options are less palatable. But sucking it up and dealing induces a mild panic in me.
I'm finding it very difficult to commit to the grad-school-as-a-lifestyle idea that I think will be necessary. I had mentally prepared myself to treat it like the full-time jobs I've had for the past several years. In theory, with 12 hours of class and, thus, 36 hours of work in a typical week, this might be possible. But I am suspecting that I will need to go back to the idea that school is my entire life in order to successfully function this term. I find this prospect unpalatable.
At the same time, I have multiple friends who have gotten masters or PhDs at night while working full-time jobs, so I feel a little guilty complaining....
Aaaaaaaaaaaaah.
I've always suspected that the belief in my own laziness was not mere self-deprecation, and now I'm sure of it. I've been casting about to find any way to avoid that extra (likely) 10 hours a week (or, you know, at least the 4 on top of the reasonably-expected 6 of external preparation), but of course the other options are less palatable. But sucking it up and dealing induces a mild panic in me.
I'm finding it very difficult to commit to the grad-school-as-a-lifestyle idea that I think will be necessary. I had mentally prepared myself to treat it like the full-time jobs I've had for the past several years. In theory, with 12 hours of class and, thus, 36 hours of work in a typical week, this might be possible. But I am suspecting that I will need to go back to the idea that school is my entire life in order to successfully function this term. I find this prospect unpalatable.
At the same time, I have multiple friends who have gotten masters or PhDs at night while working full-time jobs, so I feel a little guilty complaining....
Aaaaaaaaaaaaah.
